We sing, yet another new song, praise and worship God but are we just paying lip service or do we mean every word we have audaciously declared? The human heart is a breeding ground for discontentment. It does not take much to fan into flames the embers of restlessness in the majority of our circumstances. The equation seems simple. God is everything good we know and not know of. Not of what He does but of who He is. God is more than enough. We know, yet it seeems not sufficient to just know. The cravings for more, yearning for the grass that is always greener on the other side, is like a plague in our inner being. Our human hearts are so deceiving and so easily swayed, yet, our God is faithful to the promises He made to our forefathers.
How can we be contented with what we are already given? How can we not ask for more? How can we not lay up for ourselves treasures on earth, but lay up for ourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal.
(Matthew 6:19-20) And, so often, we struggle to seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33), because we cannot see that our hearts’ desires will be met, we cannot see the promise being fulfilled. What exactly is the kingdom of God and His righteousness per se? Will we really live to see the promises come to past if we seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness? I want to stop here for a moment.
I have come to a realisation that there is a need to make a conscious choice-to choose to believe that when our hearts yearns only for God and what matters to Him, all we are living and waiting for will be His promises that will come to pass. Regardless of it is going to be in our lifetime, His everlasting love will carry us through. Moses led the Exodus of the Israelites out of Egypt and across the Red Sea, after which they based themselves at Mount Sinai, where Moses received the Ten Commandments. After 40 years of wandering in the desert, Moses died only within sight of the Promised Land on Mount Nebo. Moses did not make it to the Promise Land, does that mean he died with regrets? I choose to see how Moses had made his choices to follow after God’s heart, step by step, a journey that made him There lies the pursue of God’s heart as the beautiful exchange of His promises fulfilled where our hearts’ desires become one with God’s desires for us. Henceforth, nothing else matters more than being soaked in the presence of God as much as we can, in this lifetime and forever more. We will be desiring for things that He has desired for, for us. Discontentment will not have a hold on this weak flesh of ours. It is easier said than done.
To embark on a journey of pursue, requires us to love and first, believe that we are loved. Since love grows within you, so beauty grows. For love is the beauty of the soul, said Augustine. And, God is love, says John, the Evangelist, in 1 John 4:8. Then we can also say since God grows within us, so beauty grows. For God is the beauty of our souls. I like a part of the conversation between Lucy and Aslan in Chronicles of Narnia-Prince Caspian by C.S. Lewis. “Aslan,” said Lucy “you’re bigger”. That is because you are older, little one” answered he. “Not because you are?” “I am not. But every year you grow, you will find me bigger.
This, I pray. Every year we grow, we will find God bigger in our lives. It will never be enough to satisfy our unquenching thirst for more in our flesh but because we have a freedom of choice, to choose to let God be the one to fill up the void in our hearts. Til nothing else matters. May His love be with us, what come may, til the end of days, to see His promise come to pass.
(Featured image: Ren Ai Township, Cingjing, Taiwan; December 2019)
His beautiful & relentless love makes a soul relentlessly beautiful.